hey girls. how are all of you? all the B's n ratu where have you girls been? tell me more.. tell me something. LOVE MUCH!

♥

It's better to have nobody than somebody who is half yours, half there or doesn't want to be there or is there and then suddenly disappears. xo.

Eiffel I'm in love?

i thought i'd share a picture with you girls

whats up ladies

Airliner by Tyler Ward & Julia Sheer :)

Saw him coming from the upstairs room
His headlights shined like the moon
I smile
He never makes me wait
Twelve roses like the clock reads noon
This Cinderella dances to the tune
Oh while
There's no time to waste

Pre-Chorus:
So can we just slow down
While you make this mistake
Just slow down
So my heart don't break

Chorus:
It's like your flying through the sky in a big airliner

looking at me with those dark brown eyes you say I'll be forever yours
Coming undone and my seams unravel
And you know that I love you but my heart won't travel
But I'll still be yours

Verse:
Sitting in his car and it's two a.m.
He's holding me like this will never end
I try
I try to hide my tears

Quarter to three and he's got to leave
A last goodbye and a kiss on my cheek I
Won't forget these years

Pre-Chorus:
So can we just slow down
While you make this mistake
Just slow down
So my heart don't break

Chorus:
It's like your
Flying through the sky in a big airliner
Looking at me with those dark brown eyes
You say
I'll be forever yours
Coming undone and my seams unravel
You know that I love you but my heart won't travel
But I'll still be yours

The seventeenth came way too soon
Now I'm staring at this empty room
He said
I'll be forever yours

try listening to this song, it's my current favourite. :D xoxo

i have been away my dear... in swiss-land it was beautiful... updates?

Salam!

shan asuhara, beebee, ratu and yum
wherehave u guys been? and yum wat happened to ur blog?

almost sleeping
not yet dreaming
oh wonderful dreams
now turned into nightmares
of running back and forth
from the worrying mind
to the worrying soul
in search for what is true
lost in what is false
stranded
should i save myself
how do i save myself
from two opposing forces
with great chances
of doing what's right
and for what's worth the fight
the journey seems so long
oh Ya Allah!
to You I belong

Random Reflection Part 1 inspired by Ephimerites

Hope glimmers as youth dies out
Bashing back and forth between present and eternity
No questions should ever be asked
As if asking would truly matter anyway

Journey to and from one's soul
as we rise and as we fall
between the heavens and the earth
two three four.. billions linger as they wait

Waiting however, has its own ways to excruciate all the life that lies within one self
As you stand here today, you will be reminded of the few who built you
Or will you?
Yes you will, holding on to the power of the words that have spoken

As reality sinks in, the journey becomes more and more and more like a plane passing under a cumulonimbus cloud
Rocky, wet, unstable
How ironic that those words were use when I haven't been revising what I thought I'd actually die for, or at least live for
Over and over again as if there is a circle.
There IS a circle but blinded by the reality or the mixed entity of our souls
Look at the past and you will see that there is a circle
Just look and compare yourself with one whom you once had given everything to
Wry, isnt it?
A friend has mentioned: you hurt, you hurt
What?--I asked
His answer was as simple as "you get hurt, you hurt others"

While I stay here contemplating or probably just fighting the battles within
I then wonder if, this is what life truly is
If this is all it will be

*I hope to God that there is more than what reaches my eyes and ears
More to life than just the physicality of one's soul
As I reach to a blank space that parts myself from well, whatever there is that lies on the other side

eid mubarak
have a good one everybody!

hey b...it seems like every relationships has it ups and downs.

what am i supposeto do when the best part of me was always you?

You're doing just fine without me,
I guess I just gotta accept that you don't need me as much as I thought

I don’t know why we all hold on to something we know we’re better of letting go. It’s like we’re scared to lose what we don’t really have.

sometimes you feel that you want excitement

screw you

Why do people feel that they have to pretend around me?

you can saitsfy some of the people all of the time, but never all of the people all of the time.

hw is everybody doing?
Salam btw

happy birthday be i love u

Funny how little things that OTHERS do make you believe

sometimes... things just happen.

LDR is difficult =)

"Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real."

So true..

♥ Sometimes , ALLAH breaks our spirit to save our soul. Sometimes , He breaks our heart to make us whole.
Sometimes , He sends us pain so we can be stronger. Sometimes , He sends us failure so we can be humble. Sometimes , He sends us illness so we can take better care of our selves. Sometimes , He takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything we have. =) ♥

its easy to find another guy,
its just isn't easy to find another guy i'd love as much as I love you

stupified

could the fear of losing be the source of it?

Some part of me wish that I am so tired that I dont care.

im soo tired that i dont care.

Forgive people, forgive yourself. Be kind to everyone you meet. When you love, never stop. Give without expecting anything back. Appreciate what you have and take care of those who love you. Lose the regrets. Remember the good times. Believe that better things happen after the bad. Have faith in God. Have faith in yourself. Always.. Now smile. :]

yum.. what you said.. should b true =)

we do not go into a relationship without thinking we wouldn't get hurt

dear world.

please do not butt in my business

Everyday we take life as it is, we try our best
and the rest, leave it to Allah
=)

Every night I'd tell myself ' I'm going to change to be a better person tomorrow. ' But everyday would end with a disappointment.

Mt Fav Westlife singer.. cute!

an opinion of a girl

Somehow, half of us use Raya as the perfect time to ask for apologies from everyone we hurt or offended. Could've just done it on the normal days. But no. Raya is when you apologize and people don't find it weird. They won't be taken aback. Knowing that fact, people who don't have the guts to do it then, make it happen during this month.

Eid Mubarak.

subconscious?

if you don't know what it feels like to be taken out on or be blamed for not your own mess, but for someone else's, then shut up. don't act like you do. you don't understand. you just don't.

I was tired of it. of everything. I was close of thinking about the other side. so near, so close. but you, for all you know, you, would miss it. you wouldn't have even realized. the thinking the mind bears.

you weren't there

you weren't there to see that look on his face. you weren't there to witness they took it out on me instead of you. you weren't there when we were running out of excuses for you. you weren't there when I needed you the most. you weren't there when I had the worst night of my life. you weren't there when we thought we saw a knowing look on the man who brought us up. you weren't there to ask what has been keeping me up all night. you weren't there, you weren't there, you weren't there.

of course, when you were there, they didn't take it out on you.

because they already took it out on me earlier.

tell me one good reason, one fucking good reason for you to be angry at me for being angry at you?

worst was what I have done more than you.

rights is what I have to take you away but I don't apply it. why? because I want you to realize it yourself.

there was this one night when you were there, but I was in need, what did you do? let some strangers be there for me instead.

because you had to be there to help someone, a stranger compared to your own blood.

what does it take for you to just be there through the worst? what would it take for you to lie, a good lie, for me?

patience, they decrease in time.

tolerance do too.

I'm only human, so are you.

when will you ever really listen to me? you hear me but you don't listen.

ask me what's wrong, have you ever? be there for me, one whole you. your body, your soul, your mind, have you ever? have you ever?

"it was nothing......... but it was everything."

are you listening my words or are you just reading me?

sometimes distance makes the heart feels closer. i sure miss u...

eat this shit. you sure do deserve it this time.

i hope my words burn you to hell :) i love you. oh yes I do.

i can feel the distance... :(

"If he loves u, he wont stop. If he stops, he's not worth it. U can feel it if he's being distant."-R

trust issues

Biiiiidaaaaaa
hahahahaahahah Im so mean!
Bulan puasa, bee!!!

i think i've been broken so many times, that big things seems so small to me

I don't know that love changes. People change. Circumstances change.
Nicholas Sparks

The first thing I did when I sold my book was buy a new wedding ring for my wife and asked her to marry me all over again.
Nicholas Sparks

sometimes enough for one person is not enough for the other. why do people pretend

''Love is fragile, and We're not always its best caretakers. We just muddle through and do the best we can. And hope that this fragile thing survives against all odds"

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.
-- Captain Corelli's Mandolin

Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you'll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, but there's also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself is the same person who's been standing beside you all along.
-- Marion St. Claire, Bride Wars

Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.
-- Meet Joe Black

Nobody thinks it will work, do they? No. You just described every great success story.

Promise me you'll survive. That you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless.
-- Titanic

The battle isnt over..

dont be lazy, PLEASE!

YLGMH,
always

im only looking for love, nothing less.

Ikhlas

He's always watching us,
Guiding us
And He knows what's deep in our hearts

“Its Hard Too Wait Around For Something You Know Might Not Happen.. But Its Harder To Give Up When Its Everything You Ever Wanted”

You can be hurtful at times..

You cross the line at times.

My head says no but my heart is a pain in the ...

As lazy as you and I are as people,
I think I deserve more..

Plan
Execute
Expect the same (or moreamount of effort of from the other party
a:If you get it, it's meant to be
b:If you don't, move on.

I think my heart is losing it's beat...
I think it's dying...
Ya Allah, just guide me to the right path..

‘Without accepting the fact that everything changes, we cannot find perfect composure. But unfortunately, although it is true, it is difficult for us to accept it. Because we cannot accept the truth of transience, we suffer.’ ~Shunryu Suzuki

Ive always said that I've been stuck between two worlds but now I know for sure
If there was actually a choice, there wouldn't have to be
Its a clear path..

Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?

It's not always rainbows and butterflies, it's compromise that moves us along

"I’m not going to spend my life chasing people. You wanna leave? Fine then, go ahead. ‘Cause I’m done with chasing and caring for people who never had interest in me. Nothing lasts and people change. I’ve learned love is hard and life is strange." - 365thoughts

sometimes your consciousness stops you, but other times let your heart speaks

sometimes your consciousness stops you, but other times let your heart speaks

Sometimes it just happens and your whole world starts to collide...

:)

guys i know everyone is busy but check out the other blog.xoxo

i've passed my second year, not with flying colours but class average...

it is what it is.

Yumni. I second you. tiring isn't it? I just don't get it. I mean, why? I didn't disturb their life.

hey all

i am sooo annoyed of people judging and misjudging, and assuming things.... argggghhh!!!! ok i just came back from santorini, had a lot of fun...xx

yuppppupup

HIIII. I had the best sleep of the week today. srsly. Slept the whooooooooole day and woke up ard 5.30pm..? syeah. there's not much to talk about this holiday. I'm wondering how's Yumni's doing. haven't heard from you recently. My homework are still not done. I haven't even started. Always doing them the last minute.

so......................... is everyone ok? :)

Ben, that's cos you're not with me kekekekekeke :P

We should schedule some time for each other. how bout..... oh right, I might be going swimming Saturday. so, let's go. Ben, are you driving?

not much has been going on. unless you count freaking out watching Vampire Diaries is something.
OMG Bibi needs to start doing her homework. DIE DIE DIE.

to be honest,
Im really bored...

31st May

what have you been up to Yum? are you coming back this Summer?

yesterday we had Hi tea birthday party for Basyirah's birthday. tons of fun and yummy food as usual since Bu bibi was the one cooking :p Benazir took pictures so you can claim them from her. We played band hero. Ka neh cali berabis cos she found it hard to play but she played anyways. most of us sucked but who cares right? it's the fun that counts. Besides that, holiday is coming. 4th June, i cannot wait patiently! What else? I abandoned my journal quite a while now and I feel guilty about it since I promised myself for the 43827582387593th time that I would write in it more often X)

I do not wish to talk about my mid-year result.

xoxo B

where is everyone? updates...

i just came back from a fieldtrip in sardinia italy, now i know why i am passionate about the subject... :) on a sadder note, my friend died the morning before i left for sardinia... :(

first big event

Hi, so MPPs and Prefects are divided into groups. of course, you choose which group you wanna be in. I chose Media. (DUH!) anyhuu, so today we held or rather assist our first big event. It was something about Healthcare or some hygienic awareness. So, i had to skip Chem class to set up the projectors and cables along with Eny (the head of Media) and Bazli (the asst Media). we were told to set up everything at 10am. but Eny and I actually couldve done it later at 11.05am when we'll be having our free period. but oh well, you gotta do what you gotta do.

The event started smoothly. something went wrong with one of the projectors, panicked a little, then fixed it and then it went wrong again some time after but by then the lecturers weren't using it anymore so we turned it off. Everything went well. the event started at 1.30pm. I got home at 5pm. now i'm jaded yet still awake. how do i manage to do that? don't ask me. Even I, myself, don't know the answer to that.

xoxo

been repeating this song on & ON & ON

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreading bout this other guy
Do you do what you did what you did with me
Does he love you the way I can
Did you forget all the plans that you made with me
Cause baby I didn't

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
'Till you believe
That that should be me
That should be me

You said you needed a little time from my mistakes
It's funny how you used that time to have me replaced
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
What you doin' to me
You're taking him where we used to go
Now if you're trying to break my heart
It's working cause you know

That that should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong I can't go on
'Till you believe
That should be me

I need to know should I fight for love
Or disarm
It's getting harder to shield
This pain is my heart

Ooh Ooh

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
'Till you believe
That that should be me

Holding your hand
That should be me
The one making you laugh (oh baby oh)
That should be me

That should be me
Giving you flowers
That should be me
Talking for hours
That should be me (that should be me)
That should be me

That should be me
Never should've let you go
I never should've let you go
That should be me
I never shoulda let you go
That should be me

by Justin Bieber.

depressing much? hahaha but seriously, even his voice is quite good here, not the typical girlish one. :)

you-know-who

oh god, my parents r hilarious!

Me:Btw, mommy mau lihat gambarnya?
Mom/Dad: Gambar siapa?
Me:Si ________
Mom/Dad:ohhhhhhh..cucu c ladin kah?

AHAHAHAHAHA

"She makes bad decisions constantly. She doesn't necessarily treat people in her life perfectly all the time, but she's ultimately a good person, and it's kind of those flaws that make her human and make her somebody

i miss u too.. double B.!! love loads... and yes work is tough. love all

i miss you Y & B. :)

ever since i entered Sociology class, there's not even one hw i have done. it is that bad. he purposely keeps adding up more hw. BUT in a ridiculous amount!

xx

infatuations?

and so he accepted my friend request... check it out horatiu... he's so cute... :)

watch out for my facebook friend's list

so this mysterious romanian guy, well he has facebook... I just found out :)

B, im so proud of u! =)
<3

I have exams going on until next week,
and then Ill be free like a bird! (get it? bird-flying) lol

Sooooooooo, should I stay or should I go?
Oma!!!!!
I will claim it from u if i decide to go lol

ok! time to study
Love u all!

Brunei is getting hotter and hotter.

there's not much update from anyone of us huh?

- Prefect of SMSA 2010/2011 (shut up! i know it's so not me! HAHAHAHA)
- falling in love with English Literature. it's expected. i don't know why i didn't take this earlier!
- have over 40 pages to read and summarise for Sociology.
- around 10 to 11 poems to analyse. this is because i just entered & i have to do all those that i missed out on.
- last week has been a very depressing week. this week it is all good.

xoxo

Yumni.. Do u even know the guy's name? hehehe
Busainah.. Seemed like u enjoyed the party
Ratu and Shan.. You guys are always MIA on the blog..

I need to finish my 5-page essay and make a presentation of it tomorrow =) FUN!

dreaming... in targu mures

so I'm loving Romania more and more, and i think i fell for this guy but I don't know what to make of it, cause I've met him once and he was smiling and I was like wow he is hot..(quietly).. but I am just dreaming now. Ioana's family has invited me over the summer again I think? or rather they're assuming I will be back. And we accidentally met her boss yesterday, he thinks that I'm going to be an intern here, but I'm not sure whether to go back home or what... I am lost. but I am at peace here... :) the land where I'll find my Edward Cullen, Transylvennia.

dreaming... in targu mures

so I'm loving Romania more and more, and i think i fell for this guy but I don't know what to make of it, cause I've met him once and he was smiling and I was like wow he is hot..(quietly).. but I am just dreaming now. Ioana's family has invited me over the summer again I think? or rather they're assuming I will be back. And we accidentally met her boss yesterday, he thinks that I'm going to be an intern here, but I'm not sure whether to go back home or what... I am lost. but I am at peace here... :) the land where I'll find my Edward Cullen, Transylvennia.

transylvennia

so how ru girls, im currently at my friends house in romania its pretty cool... and her parents are really nice... u noe wat though there's a lot of good looking guys.. :) ok so apart from that i havent seen much, was in the city today,,

hello wonderful earthlings!

i know it's been a while since i updated. so, we had school holiday for 10 days which for the last 7 days sucked. but yeah. then school started & i find GP interesting. maybe what you (yum & benazir) are saying is true, that i might actually want to go into Journalism. so im changing my Maths to English Literature. did i tell u that? ohhhh & there's a party this Saturday. it's called the Traffic Light Party made by my seniors. it's kinda like a welcoming party for my batch but most of my batch are not coming. BORING. but i will be. 'cos this party's theme is, well, rare.

there's a dress code.
Red - taken
Yellow - risk takers/ flings/ maybe baby
Green - Single/ go for it/ 100% available

i'm deciding which to wear, green or yellow?

or you can help me decide. indecisive much. maybe green. but yellow maybe baby is good.

i'm okay

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! awwhh benazir, i was so touched reading that post. for real. hehehe. i miss you two. so i changed my Maths to English Literature. i cannot stand Maths. i don't like it, plus it doesn't have anything to do with what i am wanting to take in Uni.

miss you two so much. there's only 2 days left on school holidays. i have one Socio essay to do. also, notes. belum buat. bisaiiii. hahaha.

xoxo

love that post. am sitting in the library pondering questions like when did that volcano errupted and what kind of metamorphic event and so on... it seems that geology has so many questions....? i am tired. but most of all i am dehydrated from life... but im casually passing my time. This week i have five courseworks due, and yikes it's killing me, apart from that i like having my own space :)

YOU KNOW, THE RIGHT GUY WON’T GET YOU TO CHANGE. HE WON’T SUBTLY PRESSURE YOU. HE WON’T TELL YOU WHO YOU CAN AND CAN’T TALK TO. HE WON’T HIDE THE FACT THAT YOU’RE HANGING OUT. HE’S NOT GONNA TELL YOU YOU’RE WRONG FOR FEELING; FOR BEING A GIRL. THE RIGHT GUY WILL SHOW YOU OFF TO HIS FRIENDS. HE’LL TAKE IT AS SLOW AS YOU WANT. HE’LL ONLY GO AS FAR AS YOU’RE COMFORTABLE WITH. HE’LL TAKE YOU OUT TO PLACES, EVEN IF IT’S JUST A FAST FOOD PLACE OR THE STORE. HE’LL ACTUALLY SIT THROUGH YOUR STUPID, GIRLY DISNEY MOVIES WITH YOU BECAUSE HE JUST WANTS TO BE WITH YOU. THE RIGHT GUY WILL COME ALONG SOMEDAY, YOU JUST GOTTA TOUGH IT OUT AND WAIT FOR HIM. BUT WHATEVER YOU DO, DON’T SETTLE FOR THE WRONG GUY. YOU DESERVE SO MUCH MORE.

be tell us ur story....... tell it to everyone haha :)))
xoxo,

u noe u love me...


and im fine......... i jsut came back from a fieldtrip in wales...it was okayyy, full stop...xoxo miss all of u..lots and lots

good earthlings

hello! sorry for no updates. i've been busy with school. & OMG I HAD THE MOST AWESOME 4-DAY ORIENTATION EVER! :D

school started on Wednesday & right away my Maths tcher gave us homeworks. she gives us homeworks & classworks everyday! My Chem teacher is strict yet funny. Chem class is so fun (will tell details over at the private blog!!)

I don't have GP 'til April cos we will only have a teacher for GP next month. so i got PS during GP. i got 2 PS! yeayerrrr.

Yesterday, i watched Alice In Wonderland w/ Dila, Afi, Afiq & Yazid. it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fuuuuuuuuuuun. siok berabis movie atu. everyone MUST MUST MUST watch the movie. :D :D

i got my polaroid camera already. OMG I SOO LOVE IT. HEHEHEHEHE. THANKS NADILAAA IBRAHIM!

slept over at Dila's yday.

so how is everyone?

xoxo

london-town

ok the latest news: ratu is going out with mysterious mharbin louis.. name sounds kind of different. like a mix of filipino blood? i don't know... haha.. who is this mysterious new boy.anyways i miss all of you, i have been quite relaxed lately...hehe and kind of bored... going out to arab street tonight for some finger-licking kebabs... love all of you..xoxo

I feel all panda today

Hiii. i watched My Name Is Khan yesterday w/ Liyn & her mum's family. siooook. it's such a really, really good movie. you must watch it.

these past few days have been great to the extend that i didn't realize it was the calm before the storm.

school is starting on 4th March for me. 4th-9th orientation. ahhh, should be fun. i'm in Pre U1/Sci1. Mia Rosli, my senior, told me. We're being put randomly so don't go all 'sci1?!' on me. hahaha :)


xoxo