hmm

honestly, i'm not okay, but i'm not not okay either. apakan.

the thing is, i got traumatic / went into shock or something the other day tho i can't tell you how 'cause it's their privacy.
i got a bit on the depression side. now my mind just goes all -blank- most of the time. it has that effect on me. on the day that traumatic bla bla and the next day, i couldn't bring myself to smile. i can't smile. my face was all MONG~~~~ like, blur and blank. whateverlah. don't know how to explain it.

but now i'm a bit better i guess. i'm more & more sticking to my ipod since that day. like, i don't wanna talk much. oh & Shu'ief is the first to make me smile after that incident or whatever. he's such a bright kid. love him. LOL! i love running around with Shu'ief. Hahahahah. & guess what? because of Shu'ief, he made me want to (maybe) be a kindergarten teacher. there's a possibility i might want to be into it. i still don't know what i want to do in the future. i know it's bad but i can't help it.

xoxo