So hws everybody?
Im starting karate tomorrow night.
i honestly don't know what to expect. i guess ill just have to find out.
tomorrow's going to be a weird day, i have a feeling about it.
Welcome back to school yum!

Bee, ada keluar result sudah?

♥..
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be the biggest fan of your life
=)

just got back from amsterdam an skool has started again. be what is this "private" thing that's bothering you? oh and me and the girls are having girly night in every monday and cooking and stuff it's nice, cause monday is usually the shittest day of the week as i have to work non-stop 9-6.30pm. with my lunches wasted away on doing my last minute tutorial. right now im trying to focus on my geochem and going to the gym later...xoxo

i'll just crawl into a hole & die now.... not.

there's totally something wrong with this PC. all the songs i've downloaded are fine but when i try to hear them with the headset, the songs all sound very chipmunkish! hahaha. if i wanna hear them properly, i can only burn them in a cd & play it in the cd player. ==' i don't know how to fix the chipmunkishness. i tried fixing it at the volume control but nothing changes!! GRR. bida jua tu kan dangar lagu pun macam chipmunk jadinya suara org lawa2. TOING MUCH. laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

xoxo

oh and just a heads up, my result is coming out soon. it's confirmed. but i won't tell you when. & when it does come out, i'm not gonna tell anyone what i've got. if you wanna know, you go check it out yourself. so don't go up my ass & ask about it 'cause you'll be wasting your time. *ZIPS MOUTH & SWALLOWS KEY. apakan?! ahaha.

hmm

honestly, i'm not okay, but i'm not not okay either. apakan.

the thing is, i got traumatic / went into shock or something the other day tho i can't tell you how 'cause it's their privacy.
i got a bit on the depression side. now my mind just goes all -blank- most of the time. it has that effect on me. on the day that traumatic bla bla and the next day, i couldn't bring myself to smile. i can't smile. my face was all MONG~~~~ like, blur and blank. whateverlah. don't know how to explain it.

but now i'm a bit better i guess. i'm more & more sticking to my ipod since that day. like, i don't wanna talk much. oh & Shu'ief is the first to make me smile after that incident or whatever. he's such a bright kid. love him. LOL! i love running around with Shu'ief. Hahahahah. & guess what? because of Shu'ief, he made me want to (maybe) be a kindergarten teacher. there's a possibility i might want to be into it. i still don't know what i want to do in the future. i know it's bad but i can't help it.

xoxo

http://www.facebook.com/#/video/video.php?v=1233615915347&ref=mf

hey.... r u okay??? anyways i finished exams and im certain i failed my maths exam. it has never been this hard before. i miss all of u...take k...

hii

i miss everyone like crazy. these past two days a few people seems to ask if i'm okay. they said i look sick. i feel uber shitty these past few days but i'm okay.

im bored of studying

And among His signs is that He created for you mates from among yourselves that you may dwell with them in serenity and tranquility. And He has put love and compassion between your hearts. Truly in that are signs for those who reflect.” (Quran 30:21).

one day till exam. :(

Fate..

Train..
Flying..
History..
Only Allah knows..

taking a break from homogenous eqns

finally its not just me who's posting up things here and ratu and shan where are they? umm as for me i've been trying to skype benazir occasionally but she seems to have disappeared into the thin air. i'm working on math now, i don't think it's so hard it's just a matter of practice but if i don't practice enough by exam times i shall not be able to do it, hence i've been doing it for the whole day. I've also been eating in lately cause i want to save up as well as be more healthier, i miss eating out though!!! it seems that i am craving all sorts of different food. but tomorrow i'm making miso soup i think cause the weather here is too chilly atm and i'm getting a cold all the time. when am i ever not sick anyways. i hope oma gets well soon... i miss all of you. after exams i shall be freer although i'm really determined to do well this term. hopefully my determination will take me to newer places that i have not uncovered yet in imperial. as they say in africa "po-le po-le" slowly.... in the jungle the lion sleeps tonight...trying to solve my sleeping pattern disorder or i'm screwed for exams. <3>

busy

sorry for not updating recently. i've been busy with work, korean dramas & sleep in between. couldn't find the time to blog. Yum, you found your glasses?! haha. Back to school for the 4 of you. HAHAHAHA. My Fair Lady is such a funny drama. I finished Twenties Girl by Sophie Kinsella two days after i started reading. HEHEHE. the book was amazing. Sophie Kinsella never fails to impress me :)

til next time, cest la vie. xoxo

im stressing out with exams :(

back to back

i agrreee...anyways how is everyone? bebe back to work and benazir back to skool me back to studying and ratu and shan back to their disappearance.haha.. im bored but i have got more things to learn aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh..................

=)

you know what i realize
there are just moments in life where even the flaws of a person could be their greatest asset.

ps. where are you all
yumni, im glad you found ur glasses, guess there arent any blackholes in ur room after all =P

i cant believe it they found my glasses!!!

school starts again tomorrow for me..
InsyAllah this semester would be better.
Pray for me! =)
Seems like u guys had fun at the new years bbq~!
Yum, have u been studying?

cool

2010 hello!

happy new year..

our lives

whilst studying we check our blogs.

hey all so i bailed out on all activities today cause ive been studying but i'd say it hasnt been productive..huhu..anyways. im hungry but i dont have to cook nor go out to buy food so im eating whatever that is ready. and im also starting to fall.... i think i am or i was or i don't know. im not sure. but i miss all of u..xoxo new year is coming soon hopefully 2010 is going to be the it year!!!hahaha. most of all i love u guys.

stand by u

Heyy! so this year's New Year's celebration is going to be at Babu's house i heard. i'm so excited. :) stay safe and take care girls <3

im falling

Har pal yahan jeebhar jiyo
=)

i lost my glasses again but shhhhhhh.. dont tell oma or nuna i'd be dead...anyways i'm s0 clumsy..... n i feel like shit bcoz of that.

it's all good.

hi ladies. finally, after quite a while of wait, yuri told me to start working at Pines asap. HEHE. i'm so EGGcited. no, but, really, i'm hypercited! i've always wanted a part-time job. what else? i feel like my holiday is taking a turn! :D

YUM! i love lomography! but now, i'd rather have polaroids. so anyone kind enough to buy me a really great polaroid camera? :D :D :D ahaha.

anyways, i have to go now. going to Erwan's to take all the Glee episodes! haha.

For the first time since,
I am actually wholeheartedly happy for you =)
Congratulations, hope you go far in life
You deserve it

=)

Salam everybody
I've been really happy these days. I have no clue as to why.
I finished my exams 2 days ago. Alhamdulillah
I think... Im happier single =D
I started reading this book called A Thousand Splendid Suns- Khaled Hosseini..
It is such a good book, minus some parts I'd rather NOT read =S .. (if you get what i mean)
I need to clean the house tomorrow and sunday, it looks like it's in the state of havoc =X
I just had a workout with 2 of my malaysian friends and we had Pizza and Pasta to re-gain those calories hahahaha

I've already planned out my next semester/year (sort of)
I will be joining karate lessons which will be held every wednesday from 6-8pm,
take an elective class that involves a volunteering component,
join BigBrotherBigSister (a mentorship program),
work part-time,
work my ass off throughout the year to get better grades...
Work out atleast once a week
start taking the stairs instead of the lift
What else am i missing here? i think that's all for now..

Oh, did i tell you guys I'm going to a birthday party (which will not involve alcohol) on Monday evening?
I said that specifically because my friend actually made sure with the host that there wont be alcohol before inviting me (how sweet of her!) ahahha!
And... it will be with my chinese friends who are from..
You guessed it right!
China! =D
Im also going on a Canyon Walk within this week! =D YEAH!!

On Sunday the 13th, Edmonton was the second coldest place on earth and first in North America, with temperature of and -58.4 C "with the windchill, outfreezing even the Arctic"
CCCCrrrrraaaaazzzzzyyyyy, i know!
I went window shopping with Aunty Jessica, her daughter and a family friend that day XD

Click here if you would like to read the News article>>> http://www.edmontonsun.com/news/edmonton/2009/12/13/12141366.html

what else..
So far, the 3 4 grades that are out are good.. 3 B+'s and a B, i dont know about the other 2 1 though.. Accounting isn't necessarily my best subject so Im not going to major in Accounting anymore, it would either be Business Economics and Law or International Business =D

Ok, i think that's enough of my rambling
Salam girls. can't wait for your stories
<3

jetsetter

(got this picture of the internet...)will upload soon

HELLO ALL.. life as always has been hectic for me. The past few days has been filled with sleepless nights and rush... so right now i'm in munich, germany. Yesterday, we went to a bmw museum and now im just in the hotel room not doing anything cause i'm tired and i want a break. I'm going to Austria in a couple of days. It snowed today and it was beautiful... I had to bring all my work with me cause being the disorganized, and disfunctional me i couldn't finish everything before i left...huhu.. but it all worked out well. Tonight am gonna go to a christmas market and see the old town. right now am tired and gotta clean and chill... I miss Brunei and you guys though.. It gets a bit too cold here sometimes. Be i wish i could entertain you during your hols, and benazir im assuming you're having exams??? Also, do you guys know anything about lomography?? i wana buy the camera.

changed my mind. i don't want Samsung Corby. i want my all time fav.


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:)

LG. Life's Good. haha. someone! get me Samsung Corby :(

Liyn went to Thailand today. i'm so jealous. holiday's a blur. it always is. a few weeks ago, i was dying for a holiday. now, i'm just dying in it. sure, there are days when i'm busy but during those days when i just have absolutely nothing productive to do.. -silence-....

yeah. how's everyone? yumni, how are the rocks? can we still survive on earth in 2011? you tell me. :D bunazeeee, hahahaha, how's the red-blue blur going? as for us here, shan's pretty much busy with chores everyday and i help every now and then. ratu is going hiking tomorrow! WHEEHOO! and I, yeap, am just here. fine, can't complain too much. we take what we get. :D or whatever the saying was.

Me: Can I have some paper please?
Librarian: We don't have any paper here (are you kidding me?) but you are welcomed to use the scrap paper from the recycle bin =D

....

and this is the university that received an A- from students

Am I missing something here?

im becoming lazier and lazier each day... im sleepy now. zzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZ

i need everyone's skype name so i can add u up and we can have a webcam/audio chat

to all the BB's

hey all.... i've been sleeping for twelve hours in the weekend, I guess i'm tired... but anyways we went to winter wonderland in hyde park yesterday with my house mates, it was pretty!!! i've got so much work to do as always but i'm not as last minute anymore... i started working on it earlier so i'm not too stressed. all i can think about is trying to do better but i don't know if i'm putting that much effort in...but life in general is fine as of right now. It's always RAINING here... and sometimes it gets a bit lonely.. wish u guys were here...xx

what the heck right?!

haha. whatever. here. enjoy! this is their punishment for seldom checking the blog. ha! kan berfacebook saja keraja kamu. nah!


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this is me right now but with a plumpier body, dark circles and puffy eyes. hahaha. and i'm sitting on a long sofa instead of the floor.

and this is............

is ratu and shan. Only, they both dozed off on the sofa with none of that thing covering the eyes which i forgot what it's called and also, they both have curves now and gone through puberty. not funny? thought i'd cheer you guys up with my side comments. i can't actually take a picture of them sleeping 'cause obviously they'll revenge on me. Shan and I stayed up all night til early morning watching K-drama. ha! Ratu went in and out of her sleep.

OH! Shan's maid went back today to Indonesia, early morning. Shan has to do all the housework. ha! We'll be helping since we're sleeping over. Bussalam's here too. But she's sleeping upstairs in Shan's room. The sun rose today but the moon didn't disappear from the sky. It was gorgeous. I went out to the backyard to enjoy the cool morning air and the scenery waaaaaaaaaaaaay early in the morning for almost 30 minutes while listening to AWESOME songs on my ipod. ha!

Shan's/Uncle Baie's/Basyirah's/whoever's bird can say "Hello" now. And also, sometimes it says some other words but rarely. It's still learning. Guess what Bu Bibi gave it's name? TIONG HIN! HAHAHAHAHAHA CLASSIC.

I heard the sound of a plane passing by..
and here i am..
sitting inside a library at university..

Ill be a fool for you...

terima kasih cinta-afghan

like a rut

i feel like i'm in a rut. i keep doing the same things everyday but no matter, at least i feel very relaxed. i just got back from having steamboat for dinner with MeiChee, Yuna, Tia and Melissa and also Meichee's cousin and boyfriend. how are you two doing? YUMNI, HWAITING :)

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha everyone!
XOXO!

hey guys. i'm sad... imperial makes me feel stupid.

I miss you guys... and bussalam as well
=(

There is this place called Dubrovnik in Croatia...

new moon.imperial

its nice that our blog is alive. omg i have been so busy with work and i can't way for the holidays although, i haven't really decided on what i want to do or where I'm going. My work load has been super crazy and tonight is basically the only night off since like friday. But i guess that's what its meant to be here.... I watched NEW MOON> omg...!!! i think i fell for jacob for a moment but yeah edward cullen still is the love of my life, if only vampires like him existed. But all these things are fictional unfortunately. I'm going to take a nice bubble bath with some candles i think cause I've slept for 3 hours in the past 30 or so hours and I need relaxation. Good night. Look forward to see you guys in the summer.... xooooov

Dear diary,
today i went to a wedding dinner

oh holidays

"want not, waste not" - Alice Cullen.

hellooooooooooooooooooo earthlings! i come in peace. just know that i'm on my lo-o-o-ong holiday and i'm pretty much bored most of the time! i'm going to start my part-time job soon if yuri lets me :) i had my graduation trip which went awesomely on the 18th Nov! it was so fun, i went to these places in Brunei I never knew existed! I'm excited to watch New Moon and Ninja Assassin. hehehe.

- currently at Shan's.

- in need of a shower

- pretty much jobless and can do whatever i want

- becoming insomniac again because Paranormal Activity scared the shit out of me

- i have a journal. i write my entries every night. durang adib and ajis ucap aku karit sebab aku inda liatkan journal ku. WTH! hahaha.

- i'm still in love with Choi Siwon. growing very fond of MBLAQ's Joon, G-Dragon, Beast's AJ!

- my hair is longer now, shoulder length. i want to cut it, sanak ku but i want lengthen my hair at the same time. BUT my hair is gorgeously curly as always HAHAHA

- i watched Mnet Asian Music Awards which was so awesome i literally cried a bit watching my boys perform! except nada Siwon :( hehehe

that's all for my updates right now! take care yum and benazir. miss you two. and guess what? Ratu keeps ditching me and Shan and ia selalu inda hang out sama kami. BORING! haha

ciao! xoxo

busy days

it seems that everyone's busy with work or their own respective lives. as for me my life revolves around rocks and nature... and how they affect us. and sometimes the effects are rather adverse: am so sick and tired of work.. RAISED MY HAND... out..xoxo. gonna watch gossip girl now... and oh yeah i went to milan over the weekend will post some pics.

According to my watch the time is now
Past is dead and gone
Don't try to shake it just nod your head
Breathe In, Breathe Out, Move On

you're my perfect lullaby.

Red-blue blur,
thanks for always making my day =)

sills and faults?

work work work... i thought i was over it. but winter takes me back to him...? i need to get over it.

hii

how's everyone? exam ends in two days! i'm so...excited yet scared about my result. (don't ask!) oh and then we'll be having a graduation trip! coool. now ciao!

plain

school party school party school... need some time out

Hopeful..
Only you

There something about you...
red blue blur...
=)

"Day-to-day lives have been reduced to sedentary, boring routines, largely devoid of excitement, challenge, and personal growth" (Kernan & Domzal, 2000,p79)

"Somebody, save me"
Red-Blue blur, I'm expecting you..

"Well, im happy that you know what you want. I guess it just hurts knowing it's not me" - Green Arrow

meet me halfway

I can't go any further then this
I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish

Cool, 
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day yes, I'm really missin' missin' you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl, what's up, it use to used to be just me and you
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day, yes I'm really missin missin you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl what's up, what's up, what's up, what's up

Meet me halfway, right at the boarderline
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Girl, I travel round the world and even sail the seven seas
Across the universe I go to other galexies
Just tell me where you want, just tell me where you wanna to meet
I navigate myself myself to take me where you be
Cause girl I want, I, I, I want you right now
I travel uptown (town) I travel downtown
I wanna to have you around (round) like every single day
I love you alway... way

Can you meet me half way (I'll meet you halfway)
Right at the boarderline
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Let's walk the bridge, to the other side
Just you and I (just you and I)
I will fly, I'll fly the skies, for you and I (for you and I)
I will try, until I die, for you and I, for you and I, for for you and I, 
For for you and I, for for you and I, for you and I

Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Meet me half way, right at the boarderline
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

no longer mia

i am sometimes here and sometimes there. i'm lost but not unhappy.

just in between two worlds...a transition...but how are u guys on the other side of the world? and bb, i know that's a lie.

keep it or let it be.xoxo... my beautiful cousins i miss u, but school is drowning me bit by bit.

remember when i said I had something to tell everyone? well yeah about that. benazir! I thought I did have something to yell but I don't...... :D jangan marah.. haha

Super Junior M's Blue Tomorrow. added to my favorite ballad songs list :) I love it. the Korean version of course. not that I understand the Chinese version -___-" hahaha

i have something that I think I should just keep to myself and not tell anyone. or maybe I should tell. whatever. right now no one knows except me. when the time is right, I will tell you girls and you better not be angry about it 'cause like yumni said in the birthday card she gave me for my 17th birthday; "in your world, you rule" hahahaha :p

I think I regret even giving the idea I have something I might or I might not be telling anyone. toing. xoxo beebee

Salam everybody!!!
I havent seen the red-blue blur for... 2 days.
I dont wana sound like a creep or anything but..
It would be nice to see him around again, ya know?

I miss u guys too
and yum.. where did you go?
Hope u had a good b'day.
Miss you all loads. And to those having exams,
do your best n good luck!

I miss the 5 of us being together like crazy right now. I had some flashbacks of our moments together earlier this morning. it seems like ages ago. I love you girls. (but I can't promise I won't take you girls for granted anymore HAHAHA) :(

when you're dreaming with a broken heart, the waking up is the hardest part. you roll out of bed and down on your knees and for a second you can hardly breathe - Dreaming With A Broken Heart by John Mayer.

xoxo beebee

from aphrodite.

I WENT TO LIL INDIA TODAY...haha.. so it isn't my birthday yet guys but i appreciate the eagerness.. am not too excited but am excited for our arabian nights party...it'll be fun hopefully. well i wish all of u were here to celebrate. anyways... i bought a sari today... it's so beautiful...

Yesterday: Red blue blur, you are mine
Today:The cloud and sky, you are mine

=D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUMNI!!!!!!!
I still dont have ur number to be able to call you..
Nevertheless, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
WE LOVE YOUUUUU!!!
and i miss you!
Hope everything is going good, especially your studies.
May Allah bless you with wealth, health and happiness.
Amin!

xoxo,
Benazir

QUEEN KYEEM'S BIRTHDAY!

happy birthday gorgeous yumni kim! I hope you have a blast in London and get yourself an awesome present ;P

I can't believe you're 20 now! haha time flies quick huh. cheerios!

LOVE from all of us :D

:(

English paper wasn't easy but I couldn't say it was hard either. how uncool. but oh well, thats the past now. cheer up everyone! xoxo beebee

What's left of me...

What we see is the mere surface that hides.

Didnt need a reason to live
until you came along
you spilled everything you know of towards the idea of a future together
And proved that you cold be the one

The day i decided that you were, the day i gave myself to you
you ran to find another that you had history with
the one you broke your wrist for
the one that means everything for you now
while i am nothing, nothing at all to you

And maybe its for the good
Maybe im suffering because by the time I actually find my "one", i will not get hurt,
I will realise that he is the one who accepts me for who i am, not who he wants me to be.
The one who would never think of hurting me,
The one who would not even think of hurting my feelings one bit

Everywhere i go, it reminds me of your lies
To do anything for me, that we were going to last, that we're going to travel together, for me to be your "fiance" and for us to get married
Oh beautiful lies
but in the end, you were all lies no matter how i look at it.

You keep coming back to hurt
To show me "In your face, Ive got another girl"
Really, i knew she was the reason you wanted a break
That you wanted everything to be easy for you

And eventhough I feel like breaking your face,
I hope you are happy, I really do.

Please, stop hurting me in my dreams,
youve done enough damage to me in reality.

hahehihohu

heyy! just a quick update on me (; My Olevel starts on 21st October and ends on 10th November. there is very minute time left. I had some catch up moments with Dila earlier today. hahahaha 8D

what else? I got a new crush! *adds up to the list of 42737422647371766373772 crushes XDD
and i've been nocturnal for the past whole week now. lovely! alright, toodles!

xoxo Beebee <3

masks yourselves... :(

we always put on a show... because we need to move on with our lives..

"we are but grains of sand in an eternal sandstorm"

guess what everybody?
BENAZIR IS HAPPY! ahhahaha
im hyper right now =D
miss u guys!

Can love really just go away..?

once again.

i'm down with a cold...xxx

i bet you dont feel anything..
and even when im hurting..
i still feel the same way..
Ya Allah guide me..

How could i fall for a man so heartless?

why was it so easy for you to let go?
break me..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENAZIR.. or is it belated. whatever it is. we love u....

you are definitely heartless

good luck for all your exams

Don't leave em closed.

a hard day. bit more relaxed now.

trying to forget

i think this song is significant for u ratu...xx

"those 3 words, i said too much but not enough"

There isnt anything left to say...

"Told me u love me, why did u leave me all alone?"
-JT Cry me a river

"Told me u love me, why did u leave me all alone?"
-JT Cry me a river

You're just like a pill.
Instead of making me better, you keep making me ill.

Should have seen it coming

How did our worlds collide?

"You're the love of my life..."